stuck?

life sometimes feels like there's something stuck in it's spokes, keeping it from rolling forward the way i think it should. what i have to remind myself is that there's never a time when no one is in control and that if i focus too much on what's NOT happening i miss all the awesome things that ARE happening.

i'm surrounded by a group of very supportive and loving people. even those that are not physically close are near my soul. i love you.

vocabulary - falderal

sometimes, bored at work, i'll scroll through dictionary.com. this afternoon i've found my work of the day. I'm going to try to use it sometime today... i might try out "gew-gaw" too... we'll see

fal-de-ral
[fal-duh-ral]
–noun 1. mere nonsense; foolish talk or ideas.
2. a trifle; gimcrack; gew-gaw.
Also, folderol.
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Origin:
1695–1705; orig. as a nonsense refrain in songs; of obscure orig.
Dictionary.com Unabridged
Based on the Random House Dictionary, © Random House, Inc. 2009.

throw a stone as high as you can

over the past year or so i've slowly built walls in my mind, created by routine, stress and heartache. by going through the same motions i don't allow myself to break from what i want to be "normal." by stressing about work, money and what people are thinking about me i don't allow myself to fully appriciate every day experiences. by holding on to heartache, opposed to moving on from it, i keep myself from being completely open to love.

the only thing keeping me from doing anything is myself. i'm the only one at fault for trapping my mind and thoughts...

but these walls were never really there



"the escapist" - the streets